Often, the strongest evangelists of any Faith were those who despised it before.
There are many things I looked down on or judged but have come to love — that have become a part of me.
A passion, even.
Maybe the fear that drives those feelings comes from knowing what would happen if we explore that which disconcerts us so much.
What do you sneer at that could be your passion?
The more ridiculous it sounds, the more likely it is.